i am most probably the most whiney person alive today. im trying to wean myself from all the meds and it is not easy. i feel very fragile and am afraid my back will go into spasm any minute. i live in jammies and get nothing productive done. doing laundry is a daunting task. my saving grace is the little dogs being concerned and will always take a nap with me. and every few days a sweet get well card comes in the mail. they make my whole day. while delighted i'm not surprised who they come from as they are not from the people i see very often but have a wonderful loving relationshps. just this moring i was weepy and feeling very sorry for myself when one of these cards caem in the mail. i felt so loved. god bless her.
recoving from something big and painful is the pits. it takes so much energy. but i know eventually i'll heal and move on. getttng old and being broken and looking forward to contining skeletal/health problems is in the top of my biggest fears. but it gives a whole new meaning to people who are constantly in pain. i't easy to see why how they become alcohoics and drug addicts and their lives turnn to total despair. it's got to be the worst and i should feel guilty for being so whiney for my recoery but right now i don't care how anyone else feels except for me. i am selfish right now and i don't care. thank heavens there are people who love me in spite of myself.
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