more changes

i'm getting married on june 18th.  the date was set a year in advance for a variety of reasons.  one being that i make horrible decisions with who i share my personal time so it was imperative to me that i not do that ever again.  so i gave myself until the beginning of the new year to make concrete decisions about my future with this wonderful man, steve, i'm living with.  it has not all been a bed of roses and i guess that was one the determining factors in the decision process.  when we hit a particularly rough spot last summer steve asked me if this was a relationship buster.  my response was that if we couldn't work through this, then we didn't have a relationship anyways.  we worked through it and have come out on the other side intact.  and better for it.  we are both older and pretty set in our ways.  ok, i'm kinda of a control freak and a drama queen and steve is not.  it's a good combo and it has a wonderful calming effect on me.  and even on the little dogs.  and the hardest thing for me was to learn how to pick my battles and compromise.  i am absolutely against name calling and petty crap.  if you're upset with me, say so, don't be passive aggressive about it.  and steve is no longer afraid of the drama queen.  even when i see him sleeping in the recliner, what is with men and recliners, i see myself spending the rest of my life with him and i can't say that i've ever given felt this way before in my entire life.  while getting older has been traumatic for me, again the drama queen, i have so much more contentment in my life and i wouldn't have been able to find it until i got here.