getting married

i'm getting married june 18th.  i never in my wildest dreams ever thought i'd get married again, much less want to.  it'll be a third marriage for me, a second for him, and we won't keep track of everything else in the middle.  i am of the belief that i've made this decision to marry this man, steve, by choice rather i haven't got anything else to do.  this is a brave new world for me and it's taken a long fucking time to get here.  but i'll take it now and try not to dwell on my failures.  i am blessed with the most wonderful friends and i/they want nothing more for me than to have a fun wedding.  and that's the plan.  at my age i am no longer tied down to what family wants or thinks.  ok, they can have an opinion but i'm tied to someone else paying for it and inviting all their friends you don't know or care about.  we're not inviting anyone who doesn't make a difference in our lives for just having known them.  we're gonna play all the old dance music and dance, and eat cake, and have fun.  i've decided that what's it all about, and it's not the hokey pokey.