Thursday, January 13, 2011
Life Changes
it's the new year and i'm still wondering what i'm suppose to do about it. i'm thinking i really don't need to do anything about it. i know what changes that are planned this year and what i need to do about them but about the surprises. i cannot say i'm always delighted by surprises. the biggest change i'm making this year is that i'm getting married in june. i am already cohabitating with my fiance so i'm not really anticipating any massive changes there. however, we decided late last year that it was time for him to leave the job he had, due to hostile work environment, bullies never grow up, and do something different. we both knew this was not going to be a good time. when they started cutting his hours toward the end of the year, as they have every year, he resigned. i knew that he would not go forward as long as he had some kind of safe place to be, hostile or not. it has been a tough few months and christmas, while still nice, was hard on both of us financially. alas, he started a new job this week. i am still flabbergasted at the transformation in the way he feels about everything. he is a kind, comforting person and wants to be able to help others. so he is doing in-home care. personally, i couldn't do it but i can see that it would be something he'd be good at. and after working his first shift, he is delighted with the job, and it entails things i don't wanna be doing for other people. but he is helping people who need help and that's obviously what he was meant to do. it's not big money by any means but i so want him to be doing something that he is content with rather than sucking the life out of him by the end of the day. i think we all need to look at this kind of change as we get older. what brings contentment to my life, how can i share that contentment with others to enhance theirs. with this changes in his job it means that i will be home alone three nights a week. last night was tough for me. i lived alone for over 9 years so it's not like i've never been alone, and i liked being alone. i never thought i would be able to live with anyone else again but, damn it, i became quite accustumed to it. but i also realize this open some new doors for me also. i have projects around the house that need my attention. my decorative pieces are just screaming 'change me around'. the house needs to be brightened up now that it is 'the dead of winter'. yuck!!! more on those changes to come. changes are good for us no matter how hard we fight them. you cannot move forward without change.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment