the final countdown

my wedding is 9 1/2 days away.  i have found this to be quite stressful, moreso than expected.  and i had grave concerns that i would not become excited instead of overwhelmed.  well, thank heavens, excitement has arrived.  good grief!!!  i'm getting married.  i think some people thought i was having second thoughts about the marriage in general rather than just mild (ok, major sometimes) hysteria.  but the details are indeed falling into place.  i actually knew they would but i fretted in a major way in spite of that.  i can be my own worst enemy, but i think alot of people are.  i can't do this, how am going to do that, it's all gonna go wrong, i'm not worth the effort........  i now describe the event as the spring soiree, for all my friends, and a mini family reunion, which wasn't expected but am delighted it is occuring, with a wedding thrown in for entertainment.  i can hardly wait for the honeymoon afterward so we can get out of town and i can sleep (or whatever) too much.  wait, i don't think you can 'do whatever' too much.  the rain has finally stopped, summer is finally arriving, and my dining room looks like a bridal shop threw up in it.  it'll be nice to have the house back also.  i've been doing my spring cleaning getting ready for guests and bringing out the spring/summer decorative accessories.  i so enjoy my home more with light, bright curtains and pretty colors around.  it makes me feel lighter.  winter is very depressing for me, so let the sun shine in.  and soon i'll know if we came in on budget, which was only $4000, and i think we'll make it.  i'm almost looking forward to having nothing but household expenses to pay for.