i'm married

i have survived the angst of putting a wedding together and am officially married.  if you had asked just a few years ago if i thought i'd get married again i would have told you no.  i couldn't even imagine sharing my space with anyone else.  now he's working swing shifts and it annoys me when he's not here in the evenings.  i know, it's his job. 

the wedding was wonderful.  i don't know what else i could have wanted, well, to get everyone up to dance.  family from texas attended.  i was more than delighted to have them come out just for my wedding.  one of the groom's daughers came from florida with her little boy so two of his three were here and for father's day as well.  it's been a long time since i've had a small child tearing around with all that energy.  if only i could harness some of it.  he was adorable as is his mother. 

one thing i did learn was you can't have a wedding where most of the attendees are 'more mature', this 'sorta' includes the bride and groom, have them sit in the sun for awhile, feed them, provide alcohol, and then load them up on cake and not think everyone will want a nap in the middle of the afternoon. 

and i got sick.  the day before the wedding my allergies went nuts and i had lost my voice by the end of the day.  while some people might rejoice at this, everyone seemed to know i was already totally stressed out and messing with me was not a good idea.  good move on their part.  had very little voice on the wedding day and generally felt lousy.  but this did not deter me and i had a wonderful time but was glad we had some down time in the afternoon.  also it doesn't make for an overwhelming wedding night.  the groom wanted to know if we were going back to our wedding night hotel and act like teenagers.  while i liked that idea i pointed out we could until we fell asleep about 10:00.  ah, the olden days.............

2 days and counting

the wedding continues to get closer.  my wedding sandals have gone missing.  shiney silver with sparkly diamonds, so cute.  we dismantled the house numerous times and could not find them anywhere.  i try to blame the dogs but they don't appear to be wearing sparkly little bracelets or tiaras.  i bought these awhile back and am sure i won't be able to find another pair.  but, alas, i go to the store and they have one pair in my color and size.  god was loving me yesterday.  purple carnations were ordered for the centerpieces.  they actually come from south america thru florida.  they are on time and i am excited to see them.  then i look at box, all the labels say the contents are orange ranoculous.  that is definitely not purple carnations.  i quickly go in the house, hi, hi, hi, to the dogs and go for the scissors to open the box.  i'm pretty sure my heart has stopped by now.  i was truly afraid to lift the lid on the box.  ta dah!  it's purple carnations.  i'm thanking god again.  crisis averted. the list of things to do is staggering.  i realize it will all be just fine but my brain doesn't stop going over the list.  it's very inconvenient to come to work but i'm outta here at noon and the kaos starts on a major scale.  the rehearsal is today and i'll feel better after we work the kinks outta that.  the minister is a friend and i've told him it's his job to keep the hecklers in the audience under control.  i love my friends.  but i am getting my delegation plan in place.  i can't do it all and need to come to terms with it.  i have already apologized to the groom, and my mother, for being short and snappy about almost everything.  deep cleansing breath.  today will be crazy but tomorrow all hell breaks loose.  and there will be relatives all over the place and i'll have to be nice all day.  deep cleansing breath.  my thoughts are that if i can make it to saturday, the wedding day, the worst is over and i'm just looking foward to the honeymoon on the coast so i don't have to do anything on a schedule.  i'm thinking massages would be good.  deep cleansing breath. 

OMG it's here

the upcoming wedding is no longer upcoming, it's here.  saturday's the big day.  i am frantic and frazzled and have decided that i need to let some of this go.  it will work out, or not, but if there is some kind of fiasco none of the attendees will care and will probably make some horrible story to tell about me later.  i'd do it for them.  i have been a total crazed person for several months getting this all ready.  ok, the drama queen may have escaped several times but she reels back in after a few minutes, people should get over it.  but this week the devoted groom and my mother had to get their part ready.  gee, they seem to be frantic and frazzled.  they had to admit that maybe i wasn't overreacting, occasionally, of late.  the groom is in charge of the music.  it's gonna be basic, laptop hooked into the sound system already available.  he does not swear as a rule, me on the other hand..., but i've heard some bad words escape his mouth the past 2 weeks as he puts the music together.  and i'll just get into one of the songs and it abruptly stops.  i have managed to keep my mouth shut during his process, mostly.  as he was prone to telling me when i was frantic, buck up it'll be ok.  my mother is going nuts worrying about the relatives coming in.  i pointed out they are all grown ups and it will be fine.  i did not use the 'buck up' line on her.  just talk her off the ledge.  it's gonna be ok.

tonite is decorating the arbor, tomorrow is the rehearsal, friday centerpieces get made and all the relatives hit town, and then there's nothing i can do, it's the wedding day.  getting my dress zipped up is gonna make my day.  ok, that and actually marrying the man i love.  he is very excited.  how can you go wrong with a groom that is absolutely delighted to be marrying me. 

it's gonna be ok.

the final countdown

my wedding is 9 1/2 days away.  i have found this to be quite stressful, moreso than expected.  and i had grave concerns that i would not become excited instead of overwhelmed.  well, thank heavens, excitement has arrived.  good grief!!!  i'm getting married.  i think some people thought i was having second thoughts about the marriage in general rather than just mild (ok, major sometimes) hysteria.  but the details are indeed falling into place.  i actually knew they would but i fretted in a major way in spite of that.  i can be my own worst enemy, but i think alot of people are.  i can't do this, how am going to do that, it's all gonna go wrong, i'm not worth the effort........  i now describe the event as the spring soiree, for all my friends, and a mini family reunion, which wasn't expected but am delighted it is occuring, with a wedding thrown in for entertainment.  i can hardly wait for the honeymoon afterward so we can get out of town and i can sleep (or whatever) too much.  wait, i don't think you can 'do whatever' too much.  the rain has finally stopped, summer is finally arriving, and my dining room looks like a bridal shop threw up in it.  it'll be nice to have the house back also.  i've been doing my spring cleaning getting ready for guests and bringing out the spring/summer decorative accessories.  i so enjoy my home more with light, bright curtains and pretty colors around.  it makes me feel lighter.  winter is very depressing for me, so let the sun shine in.  and soon i'll know if we came in on budget, which was only $4000, and i think we'll make it.  i'm almost looking forward to having nothing but household expenses to pay for.