changes

it has been kaotic lately with lots of changes, most of them i don't like.  numerous people i know are retiring and moving on.  first, i don't like change, and second, i don't get to retire.  and one of my dearest friends is moving far, far away and i know i'll never see her again.  and my daughter-in-law and grandson have moved back to florida.  i've become quite fond of the grandson and we'll miss the grow into his teen years.  but, if i think about it , that might be ok.  it all makes me sad.  and eat too much ice cream.

also, my first wedding anniversary was this week.  good grief, has it been a year?!!  i have to admit it didn't feel very significant and we decided not to buy each other gifts but purchased reed fencing to cover a wire fence that separates us from our neighbor on one side.  how practical.  we did exchange cute cards and i got carnations, my favorite, but it was because he pissed me off and he knew i had a right to be pissed off.  he's gotten pretty good about knowing when he's pissed me off but also why.  i consider that an attribute. 

but life moves on and i'm healing nicely and have picked a house redecorating project for the summer and am looking forward to starting the project.  i'll have to do it in stages and need some help for parts of it.  sometimes i get myself overwhelmed by a project because i want it all at once.  but breaking it down into stages makes it more manageable and helps makes some of the decisions that are lingering.  i've decided on a paint color, a pretty light turquoise, and i know i want the floor to be light in color and moppable.  i'm currently looking at stick on linoleum tiles.  this should brighten this little room up and make it a place i want to go into.  and to make it better, my husband is letting me throw out his big corner desk that is old, ugly and takes up alot of space.  yeah! 

so while i am sad about all the people changes i'm pretty excited about changing the look of my surroundings this summer.  what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.  what a bunch of crap!