getting married

it appears i'm actually gonna get married.  this is something i never dreamed i would ever say again, much less would want to.  my past is not pretty when it comes to picking men and i chose to be alone for a long time.  little dogs, it's the only way to go.  they think i'm beautiful and wonderful all the time and they always vote my way.  and i can send them outside when i don't want them to bother me and they can't tell their friends that their mother locks them outside when she's tired.  but i met steve, online, and he has added so much to my life.  maybe maturity has improved my decision making...........ok, not always.  but we paid for the wedding venue yesterday so i'm thinking there's gonna be a wedding.  i'm not sure if i'm excited or freaked out.  but, ya know, i look at steve standing there in his jammies, slippers, and 'mr rogers' sweater and i just see myself getting old with this person.  a friend tells me 'that's love, honey'.