the wedding is on

january was my deadline for deciding if the wedding was a go or not, at least it was my deadline.  well, the dress is ordered, modern bridal online, the invitations, vista print, are on their way, the photographer, greg arens, has his deposit, saturday we put the deposit down on the cake, van gooey cakes, a wonderful friend is arranging the food for the reception for a deal, and i have a folder full of all the details along with a calendar to keep me on track.  it appears we will pull this wedding off within budget, which ain't much, $4000.  my dress is not the traditional wedding dress.....i don't know, too old, what do i do with it afterward.....so the dress is a royal purple, strapless, ballgown.  i want to wear sparkly jewelry.  since diamonds are not on my list, i planned on rhinestones, lots of them.  during the weekend my mother tells me she as uncovered a bunch of her old jewelry and there are three rhinestone necklaces with dangly earrings.  one of them is perfect.  it's not as splashy i was planning but quite beautiful so the jewelry has now been selected.  both my mother and i are delighted i am going to wear her jewelry.  something old and borrowed all in one.  oen expense eliminated from the list.  and i've decided shoes that no one actually sees are not a priority any longer.  comfy sandals i already have, done.  another expense gone.  however, i've fallen in love with a very expensive nightgown, claire pettibone's athena, $150, which i keep cooing over.  gorgeous lace, slit up the side, so it covers up my horribly pudgey knees, great clevage.  hoping to find a much more economical subsitute for that.  why do lingerie people think short is the way to go.  i have terribly legs and exposing them does not makes me feel sexy.  oh dear, i'll have to go shopping.  the angst of planning a wedding.